fighting for existence, finding my worth. My mind is scary. "Dead and disgusted with those who she's trusted, To just be fucked over and left in the dust, " - Neck Deep.
Don't delete! This is my Outlet.
there is a point in your depression where you just give up on getting better but you still won’t kill yourself. you just float around in this state of nothingness and don’t notice anything around you because you’re just so numb and you just don’t want to anything about it anymore
please don't EVER hesitate to send someone who is struggling cute and lovely messages. even a little "I'm here for you" means everything and you could change that person's bad day. spread love and kindness whenever you can. trust me that a person will never forget about your kind actions.
“
Tell me darling, would you still love me If I told you about the monsters I need to sing to sleep every night?
If you understood the way I need to tiptoe across my own mind so I can fall asleep before daylight?
if you knew where the nightmares came from, if you saw my scarred soul, would being with me terrify you?
If you knew the full extent of the damage they have done to me, would you stay, would you still want to?
”
— Nikita Gill, Questions I Am Too Broken to Ask
Being passively suicidal sucks.
I don’t actually want to die, but I think about it 50 times a day
I don’t actually want to die, but I wouldn’t mind being hit by a train
I don’t actually want to die, I’d just prefer not being alive
